Going through my old posts is like going through a time capsule. It's really interesting for me to read back and see what I am up to. It looks like I enjoy just writing down facts. Like what I ate today or what I did today. Things like - day to day life. I used to kind of think that was lame but I enjoy reading the mundane things that I used to do. Those are the things that you don't remember.
Today is Feb 9, 2018. I am currently in Year 3 of my field. I became a permy back in December 2016 - so it's been a over a year since I've been "stable".
How does it feel to finally reach the goals and dreams if my previous posts? Have all my dreams come true. I don't really think so. I remember during my school days everything felt like a marathon but there was always scheduled things to look forward. For example, spring break, summer break, winter break, the end of exam period. Now it's just a constant flow of work and WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?
I am at my proclaimed dream job of 2013. I remember back then how excited I was to get into school, job shadow and to actually get into the field. Let me tell you this field is still hard. So many different random things happen. Like dealing with difficult people, plethora of housing orders, boil water orders, water main breaks, the members of the public who verbally harass you. The stuff that that have a prescribed steps of action are fine but the PEOPLE. Wow, like dude they don't train you for that during school. You either sink or you swim. So the job can be really really rewarding at times when I can tell that I am helping out people. But it can be really stressful and demanding. You need to juggle 20 things at once and you know a few plates will fall. Professional life ain't easy. But I am doing my best.
Other things that happened is that I got married. Which is just the craziest thing when you really think about it. I was always excited about getting married. And I kind of had a vision of my perfect wedding. Did I have my perfect wedding. No I didn't have the perfect wedding. I am not a perfectionist so I am totally ok with that. How did I go about wedding planning. Well let's say I did about 95% of the leg work. What did people tell me to do during my wedding: delegate. It is just hard to ask people to do things. It was hard to nag the hubs to get things done. It was really hard. So I just ended up doing most of it. If I was to do it over - I would try to delegate things better. Really I would. Future brides: ask for help!
Really though - I just really felt really bad about asking people to help me do stuff for my wedding. But on THE BIG day you really need a lot of help. I am so thankful for the people who lent a helping hand for me on that day and put things together. It turned out to be real good party and I think most people had fun!
How is married life? I don't really know what to make of it. It kind of feels the same as when I was dating and living together. Although the excitement of being with someone new and exciting is gone, what I appreciate is that I am content. And that I can do things as I please. And that I know that I have someone who loves me for me, and doesn't ask anything of me except to simply exist in his life. When people say that relationship is a lot of work - boy is it a lot of work. A lot of leg work is required and we both know it. Communication is key. And compromise. But if you both love each other from the bottom of your heart, and work hard I think that it can be promising. But I am optimistic. And in these things, I am someone who perseveres.
